August 2010
28 posts
God, I love love.
William Shakespeare: I'm done with theater. The playhouse is for dreamers. Look what the dream brought us.
Viola De Lesseps: It was we ourselves did that. And for my life to come, I would not have it otherwise. I loved a writer and gave up the prize for a sonnet.
William Shakespeare: I was the more deceived.
Viola De Lesseps: Yes, you were deceived, for I did not know how much I loved you.
The second ghost.
Im not sure if this guy even exists. That is the best way I can put across how he lives in my brain. I can talk about him, without much trouble… But I just dont know if LF is a proper person.. Does that sound strange?
He caused a lot of damage. Whether I created him or not, he caused a lot of damage.
He’s gone now.. So its ok.
Ghost. Brilliant. Living on only in my head.
...
“I object to violence because when it appears to do good, the good is only...”
– Mahatma Gandhi.
“There are only two forces in the world, the sword and the spirit. In the long...”
– Napoleon Bonaparte.
The seventh guy. Chapters 1 through 4385.
Ooooook, number 7.
I cant remember how it started.
I think it was texts, although I dont remember how we got each others numbers..
I believe it was midway through year11. Or maybe the end of year11. Or maybe the summer. I was on or about 16, anyway.
NB was sweet, funny, kind, and treated me like I was the prettiest girl in the whole world. He seemed to enjoy my conversation, and be constantly...
Parish notice.
I blocked a LOT of stuff out from this point onwards till I was about 18, so when I say my memory is hazy, I mean it.
Certain events I can recall like it was yesterday, but other things I just cannot put my finger on.
Like timelines.
I cannot 100% remember which guy came first with guy number 7 and the second ghost. I think it happened this way around, so thats how im writing it… but I...
Guys and the L word. Gotta love American Pie.
[Deleted Scene. Jim, Oz and Kevin walk down the corridor]
Jim: Oh man...
Chris "Oz" Ostreicher: Shit dude, the 'L' word?
Jim: And what did you say?
Kevin: Nothing - I mean I hugged her back.
Chris "Oz" Ostreicher: Good, then you're still safe.
Jim: You think she was serious?
Kevin: Well, well, she could have meant like "I love you Grandma" or "I Love you Cornell"
Jim: Yeah, yeah.
Chris "Oz" Ostreicher: Hey, don't worry about it bro, I got the solution; It never happened. Forget about it. Don't mention it again and just lay low and hopefully - hopefully - she won't mention it again.
Jim: Yeah.
Chris "Oz" Ostreicher: Yeah, no Sweat.
Jim: I couldn't have said it better myself
Chris "Oz" Ostreicher: [snorts] You couldn't have said it at all Jim...
Jim: Hey.
The first ghost.
JL.
Thats really all I need to say to get over this one.
I thought he was really nice.
He wasnt.
But he wasnt the worst.
—out.x
The sixth guy.
I dont really like this memory. Although with this number6 I do get great rebel points.
It must have been year10. Thats right. Nothing milestone-ish between year7/8 and 10 that I can remember.
There were two gcse M classes. I was in one, the higher, and this guy, JC, was in the other. Somehow this guy managed to work his way into my radar - we werent friends, we didnt have the same circles,...
The fifth guy.
After those guys my memory goes a bit. I dont think there was anybody significant, though I can remember perfectly well having boyfriends. You gotta love primary school relationships for jumping from one boy to the next.
Great games, too. Kisschase, kiss cuddle or torture, make believe… Sigh.
Then comes senior school. Right at the beginning in year7, when everyone goes out with everyone, I...
“There are times when you just get down, and you feel like nobody likes you....”
– J. Russell Lynes.
The third and fourth guy.
Only a little after JE, I found my thing for older guys. This is still something I possess… as well as a thing for younger guys. And guys my age…
They were best friends PC and DF, and my first memory is sneaking Valentines cards into both their backpacks on the 14th. Even though I did it during class time, while their bags were hung on pegs outside their classroom, for some reason my...
The second guy.
Although I have recollections of having ‘feelings’ for other kids after JT left (and I use inverted commas lightly, just as I use the word feelings referring to me at that age… at any age really), the next boy I remember being mine was JE.
JE was a naughty kid. He had a white blonde bowl haircut, and I was totally crazy for him. He was totally crazy for me too. He was my first...
Boys? Really?
Peter Griffin: [holding crying baby after Carol has given birth] It's a beautiful baby girl!
Carol Pewterschmidt: Ooh, a baby girl! I'm so happy!
Peter Griffin: But she has a penis. Well, we'll have to do something about that [Picks up scalpel.]
Lois Griffin: [taking scalpel away] Peter, no! It's a boy.
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The first guy.
I think this guy was The One. Ha…..
His name was JT, and we were 4 or 5? And I totally LOVED him. He is about the only thing I can remember vividly from that age. And I went to Disneyland for Gods sake. So I think he was a big deal.
Primary school. KI/KJ. We were together a LOT. Most of the time in fact, though inseperable may be pushing it.
Then he moved to New Zealand before we hit 8.
...
“It’s not true that nice guys finish last. Nice guys are winners before the...”
– Addison Walker.
Confessions.
All the people in my posts will be initialised for privacy - more my own than anybody elses… If you do have a suspicion that you know who I am, or who I’m talking about… do me a favour? Shhh. Privately contact me to see if youre right, wrong; yell at me, ask me questions, tell me im an idiot… Just do it discreetly. Im only doing this as therapy. Cheap, cheap therapy. :)
“When you’re young, your whole life is about the pursuit of fun. Then, you...”
– Sex and the City.
Brief.
I never learn.
And I am totally aware of that.
Every man… ever.
I am a silly girl.